Idon'twantthislovetofeellikeabattlefield.
My heart hurts alot. I think I'm loving too much that every time when you disappoint me, it stabs right in. Thoughts of getting someone to replace you came across before. I can't leave you. I've realised that i don't find you when im upset. I don't want to see you hurt.. I don't want to end. Idontknow why were you so cold. Idontknow why you still want to do it when you already know i don't like it. I don't know why is there so many things that i don't know. I feel that i don't understand you enough. I feel like giving up on this. But it hurts when i want to speak to you about it, And i'll end up throwing the thought of a break up away. The way to talked to me yesterday. The way i wait for your message all day long.
I've tried removing everything about you away from my sight and i still find myself thinking of you and picking those things up again. Not feeling well these days. I didn't tell you about it. I don't want you to worry about me. I don't mind you being overprotective. i just want you to care for me like before. Hug me like how you to one year ago. 5 more days boy. Bring me back to the past please.
i felt so happy to be able to see you 2 days ago. The hug. It made me want to cry out. I wanted to tell you how much i miss you, how much i love you. but i didn't. I don't know why. but it seems like i don't want to tell you how much i love you. Istillrememberthefirstkiss,thefirsthug,thefirsttimeyousentmehome,thefirsttimewemet.
I'd never felt this happy before. I've never felt so blessed before. I just want all this to last. I want you by my side when i cry. I'd check my phone immediately after i wake up in the morning hoping to see your message. but seems like there none. Ever wondered how would we quarrel if we are still together when we're old. Ever wondered where would we go for our honeymoon. Ever wondered who would you be with if we were not together. Ever wondered who would i be with if we didn't meet. Ever wondered how fun it would be to quarrel over the furnitures we're going to buy in future. And i thought. Thats all so far away, why am i thinking about it already? Boy, there is still love left.
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Yuyin