依赖

Gonna be alone for the next few days, and i thought a lot about it last night. 心想自己真的太过依靠别人。It's not going to be a one two day thing. Since i am an only child, then that would mean that i would most probably be living alone in future, if my parents weren't around. Sleep alone, eat alone. Damn. If only i had a sibling. Meh. Maybe i should get married earlier or something.

Trying hard to put future thoughts aside first and think about these few days. Scrolled down my contacts list last night 心里一直在想 '到底能找谁呢?'

Not the first time feeling this way. Nothing new. Time to be independent.

-宇音

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Think Hard.

Contemplating whether to play under Dr.Goh again. It's been almost a year since I last played in a band. I don't know if I will be able to juggle with all the practises. Plus I know that if I ever go back to practising again, I might be stuck with bandbandbandband again and will take forever to get over it when I graduate. Damn.
Watching people drop out one by one, makes me feel that I would leave someday too. The waste of talent, time and all the effort put in.
And the super gekxim feeling when I think about all the opportunity I'd missed to teach and learn in 2012.

-GYY

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A Little Lost.

I seriously don't know what am I doing right now. My paper is in a week's time and I haven't even start studying. Don't even talk about practising and memorising the terms and notations. Damn... GYY, you need to wake up. It'll be damn stupid to retake this.
Not asking for much. A merit will do, please.

-Yuyin

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Find myself annoying sometimes. Feel like stepping out of my owm body and see myself from another perspective. How am i like to others? Change? How?

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-没有什么好值得你留下。

------ 怎么办我不敢睡...

Is there anything out there that i'm good at doing? Oh... Daydream.

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厌。

So i thought today would be the last one... Guess i thought wrong.. Need to be back for B.T. in a few months. And maybe a few more times for more -.
I really wonder how long can i drag..
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Dangchubicibugouchengshutanbai.

Zhendeyounamerongyijuedingfangqiwoma? Manmandezhuanshenglikai, Zoulejiubuhuihuitoukanle.

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有时真的觉得全世界跟我唱反调。。。

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隐形的翅膀

(L),
Yuyin

猜不透

Hanging.

Mixed feelings now.. Kind of frustrated, yet happy and a little upset. Trying so hard to come up with an answer to shut myself up. Better than being left here without an answer, constantly guessing, imagining. It tough. Its scary. I don't know how i should feel. Am i suppose to be blue or red?
Its not about the answer... It about having an answer.

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开。

It's been long since I last updated. Thought of coming back here for a little while since I'm looking more on the bright side now. (Although I don't know how long this will last)
Well, its the last week of school now.. Tons of stuff piling up the next few weeks. Chinese new year uh, exams uh, rehearsals uh, blah blah blah. Yes, Stress die, Busy die. Well, since its a new year.. Let's just hope that thing will go shun shun uh!


不知怎么了,突然看得很开。不是很开心,但是很开心。乱乱的心情自己长脚,走到了心里的角落,自己说考完式再想。也许是因为有朋友在吧。
At least there's someone to talk to and keep my mind occupied. At least my mind won't wander elsewhere for now...

(L),

Yuyin

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是我自己想太多吗?
不是不想分享,只是觉得没有那个必要。觉得是自己一时幼稚,一时乱想。好不容易习惯了一个人。。好不容易习惯把心事藏在自己心里,不和任何人分享。感觉自己经过了太多,不敢轻易相信人。不敢让别人太了解我。。

我怎么会变成这样的?

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Send a Thousand I Love Yous.

Finally all icas are over! Woohoo~
I could totally feel all that stress fly out of my head after the bsa paper. Like finally. Enough of rushing through stuff, trying to memorise all the theories, graphs, applications and whatever shits. Will start catching up on all the things that I've been missing out on. I will be back next term, stronger.
Hmm. Well, the week is ending and it feels pretty good to keep hearing 'Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year. Enjoy your holidays and I will see you next year' from lecturers and tutors.
Busy busy holiday is coming up, real soon, and it will end real soon too. :/ Hmm. Hopefully I'll be able to make good use of the first week of my holidays to revise.
Blogging on train, on the way to school. In quite a good mood now. Hmm. I don't know why. (:

Sooooooooooo,
Have a good week, and HAPPY HOLIDAYS! :D

(L),
Yuyin

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不值得。

应该早一点跟你说得的。现在感觉好像在欺骗你。。我真的不知道应该怎么开口。觉得自己不值得你那么的爱我。。。。 该怎么办才好?

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Other side of down.

Just too many things happening these days. Too many things to think about. Everything seems to be going so fast. Its been few weeks since i last had 'self time'. Feels like i'm going to explode soon. Don't know what's going on in my own head. :/
Need some good brains to piece my stories together.

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Dont feel worthy for all these stuff. Not worth. Just a useless piece of used shit.

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我们可不可以不勇敢?

Too many things i want to say, and i don't know where to start. So.... Till i sort out my thoughts!

(L),
Yuyin

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我们怎么Love?

每个人想拥有的爱情都不一样. 你想要的是怎样的爱情?
自己想要的是比我还要了解我的爱。
我常常问问自己是否把期望放得太高。自己又不是什么好女友,不体贴,难缠,像个小公主一样难搞。
别人常常在旁边照顾着我,为我付出,牺牲,我却从不想想自己是否愿意为别人付出什么。
不是说好把感情统统锁在角落头?
现在的我真的不知如何是好。。 只希望自己在等心说出答案之前不会做出什么冲动的决定,耐心地等。。
都是我自己一方面的问题。为什么那么自私,那么贪心?


(L),
Yuyin

Voomz.

School is starting tomorrowwwwwww~
Was actually looking forward to a new semester in school... Was...
Didn't do much this holiday. 7 weeks just flew pass like phewwww and GONE. :/
Whole holiday spent lazing around, and spending time in school.

So last Wednesday was excel day, and NYPPE got to perform a mix of samba and lids.
So we managed to get the whole chorography into our heads, rhythms, movements and all in about a month. On the day we manage to finish piecing the sequence together, I was like ' woah, Dennis can do magic!' I really thought it near impossible to finish piecing the music together.

yayaya, but we all did manage to get everything done and blah blah blah. All thanks to wonderful alumni and of course Dennis!

Okay, I don't know what to talk about now...... So I guess I'll go prepare for school tomorrow!

Goodnights!




(L),
Yuyin

Maybe everything was a mistake from the start. 

(L),

Yuyin

Finally, October is here... 14 days of holiday left. 

I don't know what to blog about now, so will just update about my last week of September.

Lunch with mum on last Monday afternoon then head home to get some rest. Celebrated my birthday with some classmates at seoul gardens. Got to thank them for that awesome day. (:

Tuesday was as usual, woke up late then went for practise early. 

Spent my Wednesday alone at home, trying to finish painting my shoe and pack my room.

Lunch with Unitypercs on Thursday then went for practise.

Two days of camp with NYPPE was well spent. Best part was the games, especially running man! Heh!

Okay, guess that's all for now. Till I have something to blog about! 

(L),

Yuyin

Long.

Met up with my girl on Wednesday for lunch. It's been months since we last had a proper chat, and the time we spent together yesterday was totally not enough for us to finish what we had to share.. :/ Hopefully there'll be time for us to meet up for lunch again next week!

(L),
Yuyin

Friday the fourteenth.

The unnis finally agreed to go for a picnic at the Marina barrage. I was so looking forward to this day with them, and super duper excited to make my potato salad. (laughs)

All picture credits to Amelia. 

At the bus stop 

Bloob~

Some of the stuff we brought.

Nomz! 

With Amelia.

'Eh YY, go run! ' 

Run baby run, don't ever look back~

With Angeline!

'Look here! ' 

Mia and Nana

Lying comfortably on Angeline's leg

 The buey pai seh me took a lot of self pics with mia's camera. :x

yysline! 

more more more pictures up on facebook!

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Head down to town for some shopping with the unnis again on Monday. Train back to choachukang then to jurong to meet Henry, and we cabbed down to lavender together for Home Coming. 

Us with Awesome! 

(L),
Yuyin

300812

Day out with poly clique to celebrate our prettiest's birthday.
Met and had lunch together at Jcube, Capricciosa.

Birthday girl with her penguin. 

Us with prettiest! 

Group shot. 

With Cynthia! 

Shopping shopping~~

Head down to causeway point hoping to get more buys that day, but then we were all very tired and decided to head home after walking around aimlessly for some time. 

Run.

好想知道你的一百分会给怎样的人。。。

(L),
Yuyin

Practise.

Had lunch with percies before heading to school for practise. Dennis came down early to help fix the problem I had with my left hand, although it seems rather okay today, but it was my right which looks more weird. But well, enjoyed today's practise. Learnt some lids, something new and fun. September and October is going to be packed with practises and performances, am really looking forward to it. Let's hope that there'll be a NYPPE concert at the end of the year.

NYPPE performing Double Dribble during their concert in 2010 (if I'm not wrong)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oY7EWeuylKs&feature=share&list=ULoY7EWeuylKs

NYPPE - Clean Sweep

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2owo1okiJVw&feature=share&list=UL2owo1okiJVw

(L),

Yuyin

Memories of the flyer.

Found a video of Unity alumni performing someday during Rinascimento just now. Hopped over to our SYF performance and decided to blog.

Currently listening to The Singapore Flyer. It kind of feels different listening to it now. It sounds really nice, full of feelings and stuff. Sometimes you just got to stop picking on the clashing sounds, rushed rhythms and just enjoy the music, you'll realise how pretty everything actually is. But I still feel that the timp. part sounded really fierce, although I tried to tone down on the second solo... Really miss playing the timpani, trying to create the most beautiful crescendo and the most bouncy sound..
Die Fledermas sounds really grand to me this time, flowers blooming feeling. Oh, and I think the bass line like a boinggggg only~ I mean the Tubas and I. :x




Oh, I got Sinfonia's DVD back last Thursday and spent the whole Friday morning watching it. The part which I enjoyed most was of course the Percussion Ensemble part, Novia Bonita and Rock n' Roll it. \
This was one of my worst performance, but it was one which I enjoyed the most. I screwed up all my notes, and expression But well, I couldn't stop smiling while watching our performance. The seniors' movements and expressions are just -speechless-
Am looking forward to tomorrow's practise, Dennis agreed to come down earlier to help me fix the problems I had with my lefty. (:

Am still thinking about the brass path...... Don't know if I should really go for it. It's gonna be tough, really tough.

(L),
Yuyin

只想一个人静一静。。。

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Week.

270812, Monday

Met up with the sexy animals at YewTee for a study session. Agreed to go even though I finished my exams and have nothing to study. Brought my theory down to do. 

With Jessie and Sherry.

Janice and Sherry

With Girlgirl.

280812, Tuesday

Last minute plan to head back with Unity with Sylvester. Sprayed my hair black. T.T 

Wanted to have lunch at school, but guess we were a little too late, only the drinks stall was open when we reached. :(

(Separate post for Thursday coming up! )

310812, Friday

Lazed in bed the whole morning as I woke up feeling unwell and decided to stay home.... But then I still went out to catch a movie with the girls. Last minute plan to watch Step Up Revolution. As usual, walked over to Angeline's place before heading to Lot One. Bought the tickets and grabbed some bites while waiting for Amelia and Justina to come. 

27'09

Tickle tickle~

With Amelia.

Amelia and Angeline.

With Angeline.

Justina and Amelia, while Angeline and I tried to photo bomb. 

With NanaMama.

 Awesome day spent with the girls.
If I didn't place Unity as my first choice, If I wasn't in 17'08 27'09.
Always like a baby 的我 forever being nagged and taken care by these unnies..... But what have I done for them? :/

能认识这群朋友真的是我的福气

(L),
Yuyin